Well this is a day late, so im doing today's and yesterday's together. I didnt feel like blogging yesterday cause i was tired.
Yesterday, i messaged Her and she replied and im not happy with the answer so whatever. im just gonna ignore it. im done with all the bullshit. and then my mom and i have been fighting a lot more lately. it sucks. but it is what it is. she just, gah.....
Today, i took Benedryl cause my allergies are coming back. Then i took a nap for three almost four hours. ive been waiting for Katy or Lily to text me all day, but i havent gotten a single thing other than Haley but thats whatevs. I think this just shows me that i need to get over Katy and im gonna put an effort into it. Lily, i dont even know. Bottom Line is, life is kinda shitty right now. And im not sure how im gonna turn it around. but i need to...
The time is 8:46. have a good night.... Lily is home in 13 Days
-Noah
Wednesday, August 3, 2011
Tuesday, August 2, 2011
Uneeded yet totally nessecary
so i really find no need to post again today because as always it was boring. lets see, i worked with my moms husband and she got pissed cause i didnt want to. and apparently i made her cry which made me feel super bad. then i came home and played computer for a long time. I might pull an all nighter because im not very tired, but we will see.
i messaged Her on facebook and told her about this whacko dream i had... no response yet, surprised? Me neither. I thought about Katy and i still dont know how im going to handle to situation.
14 Days until Lily Comes home!!
Noah is going back to Gaming. the time is 1:20.
i messaged Her on facebook and told her about this whacko dream i had... no response yet, surprised? Me neither. I thought about Katy and i still dont know how im going to handle to situation.
14 Days until Lily Comes home!!
Noah is going back to Gaming. the time is 1:20.
Sunday, July 31, 2011
Today was Sunday
today was sunday, yes that it was. oh man, what to say... I did nothing really. Mom and Husband went out of town and junk. So Sister and I were stuck here all day. i just played alot of computer games. and then we drove around town and explored kinda. We figured out that there indeed is NOT a Dairy Queen in this dump. so we went to Mickie D's and got a McFlurry instead. Then we came home and played more computer games... i hate it here, its so boring. there is really absolutely nothing to do.
i was texting Katy earlier and ive been in an oddly cuddly mood lately and i couldnt figure out why but i suddenly realized that it is because Erin is at my back at home on my bed at my dad's house. Erin is a green Teddy Bear with a shamrock on his chest that was given to me the day i was born. So since my sleeping buddy is gone i think thats what is causing me to feel so alone at night. not to mention these strange feelings ive been having for kellie and the fact that shes so far away. i thought about Her for the first time in a while today... i just wonder what shes up to and if she thinks about me as much as i do her.
Lily is here in 14 Days.
the time is 11:13 and Noah is going to bed.
i was texting Katy earlier and ive been in an oddly cuddly mood lately and i couldnt figure out why but i suddenly realized that it is because Erin is at my back at home on my bed at my dad's house. Erin is a green Teddy Bear with a shamrock on his chest that was given to me the day i was born. So since my sleeping buddy is gone i think thats what is causing me to feel so alone at night. not to mention these strange feelings ive been having for kellie and the fact that shes so far away. i thought about Her for the first time in a while today... i just wonder what shes up to and if she thinks about me as much as i do her.
Lily is here in 14 Days.
the time is 11:13 and Noah is going to bed.
-sigh-
Today, was my second day at my moms. I was so bored. i didnt do anything productive all day. I found out Lily broke up with Christian today and to be honest, it was such a relief. I dont have to worry about Lily anymore and now i can talk to her and spend time with her without feeling bad.
I thought about Katy way too much today. i miss her more than anything right now but i dont know what to do. i wish i was there to go to the Movie in Park with her tonight. Im so bored and lonely here which just gives me shit loads of time to think and to be quite frank, i hate it. i just want to hurry up and be back out on the Marching Field once again and back at school........ i dunno what to do about anything.
Goodnight, from Noah to you. The time is 12:35.
15 Days!!! (or something around there)
I thought about Katy way too much today. i miss her more than anything right now but i dont know what to do. i wish i was there to go to the Movie in Park with her tonight. Im so bored and lonely here which just gives me shit loads of time to think and to be quite frank, i hate it. i just want to hurry up and be back out on the Marching Field once again and back at school........ i dunno what to do about anything.
Goodnight, from Noah to you. The time is 12:35.
15 Days!!! (or something around there)
Thursday, July 28, 2011
The Kill
The Kill by 30 Seconds to Mars is one of my favorite songs of all time and i sing it whenever i miss Her. its perfect really. Sorry ive been forgetting to blog. I stayed at big Noah's the other day. Today's blog is going to be a letter to Katy because this is the only way i can think to sum up the past couple of days and express how i feel.
Dear Katy,
Yes, my plan blew up in my face, but to be honest... im glad it did. Chelsey bailed on me. I bailed on Tess. And you and I decided to wait to kiss for now. I love you so very much. and you are just about the most perfect girl ever. But you kill me inside. everytime you tell me about a boy who you kissed, or all those memories of you and Nigel with Big Noah and Lily. or when you talk to your friends about a cute guy that you want to be with or hang out with right in front of me. You have no idea. Ive never said anything because i know you dont feel the same and who am i to ask you to stop that stuff? i am nobody. Or at least to you. Ive had a great time these past three days just hanging out with you and being around you. You looked so amazingly beautiful yesterday before we went swimming and then again when we went to Harry Potter. I caught myself staring quite a few times and i had to force myself to stop. Holding your hand was...... phenomenal. we havent held hands in a long time. i forgot how right it feels. i loved it. thank you so much. I miss you right about now... as im writing this. But i guess this has to be goodbye. i dont know how to describe how i feel right now.
Lily is home in 17 Days. the time is 11:24. Noah wishes you goodnight.
Dear Katy,
Yes, my plan blew up in my face, but to be honest... im glad it did. Chelsey bailed on me. I bailed on Tess. And you and I decided to wait to kiss for now. I love you so very much. and you are just about the most perfect girl ever. But you kill me inside. everytime you tell me about a boy who you kissed, or all those memories of you and Nigel with Big Noah and Lily. or when you talk to your friends about a cute guy that you want to be with or hang out with right in front of me. You have no idea. Ive never said anything because i know you dont feel the same and who am i to ask you to stop that stuff? i am nobody. Or at least to you. Ive had a great time these past three days just hanging out with you and being around you. You looked so amazingly beautiful yesterday before we went swimming and then again when we went to Harry Potter. I caught myself staring quite a few times and i had to force myself to stop. Holding your hand was...... phenomenal. we havent held hands in a long time. i forgot how right it feels. i loved it. thank you so much. I miss you right about now... as im writing this. But i guess this has to be goodbye. i dont know how to describe how i feel right now.
Lily is home in 17 Days. the time is 11:24. Noah wishes you goodnight.
Tuesday, July 26, 2011
Well,,,,
well today was great. I got my License!!!!! woot woot. and then went and saw Emily and then Katy.
I wasnt sure about Katy to be honest. my plan blew up in my face. Tonight i ended up just kissing Katy on the forehead. but lately she feels distant and like she is avoiding me so i assumed that meant that any kind of romance was gone. but exactly 7 minutes ago, it was brought to my attention that she loves me and wants to make me happy and wants to kiss me very very much. She just doesnt think she is ready for/wants the commitment associated with it. she also doesnt want to rob me of it but she is 1000% percent sure that she wants to kiss me. im saying this as i get the texts.
to be honest, i dont even think i am ready and i definitely dont want a girlfriend right now. but ever since freshman year we have talked about her being my first kiss and ive wanted it so desperately since then. she is one of my best friends. so im not sure what to do. I think im just going to go with the flow and not fight the kiss. But if the opportunity doesnt arise until a twelve hour bus ride to Oregon where everyone is asleep then so be it. Even if its not either of our firsts it will be OUR first together which makes it even more special.
19 days until Lily comes home!!!!!!!
The time is 11:53. Goodnight Blogger.com. Yours Truly -Noah
I wasnt sure about Katy to be honest. my plan blew up in my face. Tonight i ended up just kissing Katy on the forehead. but lately she feels distant and like she is avoiding me so i assumed that meant that any kind of romance was gone. but exactly 7 minutes ago, it was brought to my attention that she loves me and wants to make me happy and wants to kiss me very very much. She just doesnt think she is ready for/wants the commitment associated with it. she also doesnt want to rob me of it but she is 1000% percent sure that she wants to kiss me. im saying this as i get the texts.
to be honest, i dont even think i am ready and i definitely dont want a girlfriend right now. but ever since freshman year we have talked about her being my first kiss and ive wanted it so desperately since then. she is one of my best friends. so im not sure what to do. I think im just going to go with the flow and not fight the kiss. But if the opportunity doesnt arise until a twelve hour bus ride to Oregon where everyone is asleep then so be it. Even if its not either of our firsts it will be OUR first together which makes it even more special.
19 days until Lily comes home!!!!!!!
The time is 11:53. Goodnight Blogger.com. Yours Truly -Noah
Monday, July 25, 2011
Wow
wow. sorry i havent blogged in a couple days. lets see, sunday night i was super tired cuz i stayed out and went to Sunrise at 9:30 for two and some odd change hours. i didnt get home till after midnight.
lately, ive found myself in a knot. im so torn. i dont wanna hurt anyone or be a douchey whore, but at the same time im done with trying to get a girlfriend. no ties. I have to find a way to keep true though.
this week has and will be pretty busy. Last night i went to Transformers 3 with Haley, and then went to sunrise and met up with Tess there. Tess is this girl who i had a class with freshman year. She's great. fun and pretty and just great to hang out with. she's made a good sized handful of mistakes in her life sure but shes turning around. we hung out and talked and she flirted a shit ton. then after i left i realized that she wants to kiss me now too. Katy should be home by now. Heres my plan:
Tuesday- do nothing until my drive test, take it. hopefully pass. Go see Katy right around sunset. make her come out side. grab her by the hand and take her to the end of the dock where i give her nice big hug and that special kiss.
wednesday- wing it through the day. wednesday night, meet up with Tess and just chill maybe kiss.
Thursday- im going over to Chelsey's and i will more than likely kiss her too.
Friday- Going to my moms :(
Im finally catching up. Im a stud now and im giving back what is long over due to all these girls who have wanted to kiss me. I just desperately want Katy to be my first, she deserves it. Next week, when i get back im going to have to try and chill with Lindsey a little bit.
i think i might go for a bike ride in the dark here in a little bit. the time is 8:46. have a good night bloggers. Lily is home in 21 Days!!
-Noah.
lately, ive found myself in a knot. im so torn. i dont wanna hurt anyone or be a douchey whore, but at the same time im done with trying to get a girlfriend. no ties. I have to find a way to keep true though.
this week has and will be pretty busy. Last night i went to Transformers 3 with Haley, and then went to sunrise and met up with Tess there. Tess is this girl who i had a class with freshman year. She's great. fun and pretty and just great to hang out with. she's made a good sized handful of mistakes in her life sure but shes turning around. we hung out and talked and she flirted a shit ton. then after i left i realized that she wants to kiss me now too. Katy should be home by now. Heres my plan:
Tuesday- do nothing until my drive test, take it. hopefully pass. Go see Katy right around sunset. make her come out side. grab her by the hand and take her to the end of the dock where i give her nice big hug and that special kiss.
wednesday- wing it through the day. wednesday night, meet up with Tess and just chill maybe kiss.
Thursday- im going over to Chelsey's and i will more than likely kiss her too.
Friday- Going to my moms :(
Im finally catching up. Im a stud now and im giving back what is long over due to all these girls who have wanted to kiss me. I just desperately want Katy to be my first, she deserves it. Next week, when i get back im going to have to try and chill with Lindsey a little bit.
i think i might go for a bike ride in the dark here in a little bit. the time is 8:46. have a good night bloggers. Lily is home in 21 Days!!
-Noah.
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